FUCK!!!

I know its Christmas and everyone is suppose to be happy and joyful, but I just want to vent. Here is my list EFF U's, kinda like the twelve days of Christmas... In no particular order.

FUCK:

1. My family who can't put bullshit aside for one day and just be happy...

2. My dad who purposely comes home late christmas eve angry and picking a fight so he has an excuse for not getting anyone presents...

3. My ex who is only happy knowing I'm single and lonely, because otherwise he is jealous meanwhile he is happily in a relationship with the person he left me for.

4. Those people that have no pride for themselves, and get there parents to try to hold together their relationship.

5. The old "SO CALLED" friends who have no problem dropping me like a bad habit whenever its convenient for them.

6. All the fake merry christmas wishes via Bbm broadcasts, Tweets, or Facebook statuses...

7. Family member that think a merry christmas wish via facebook makes u close even though I DONT KNOW U and don't even care to... Last names don't mean SHIT!

8. The LOSERS that try to use merry Xmas wish to help them in their efforts to advance into ur pants! FUCK OFF!

9. The people u try so hard to prove that u care about them more then anything, and just end up feeling like a crazy retard for even trying...

10. The people u think ur close to, but turns out ur not even a chapter in their book, just a passing amusing line...

11. The people that just don't know how to let go, when they and everyone else knows they should. Including myself...

12. The 12th day of Christmas, and U if u didn't like this list or thought u were included, CAUSE U PROBABLY WERE!

MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS!

My first Video project

Directed and Edited by URS truly =)

Intimate Manipulation...

Sexual frustration

 plus pornography on your favorite station

equals me in pure desperation

 masturbation is the first lesson for this situation

 at first there is some hesitation

 but then you just sprinkle some imagination

 & it becomes such a sensation

 now do see where I'm going with this conversation

 don't just stand there like decoration

 I need your full cooperation

I'll even throw in a free demonstration ;-)

IT

Ok I was patiently sitting waiting for the A train at Broadway Junction. After a couple minutes of waiting someone sits next to me, now I am not sure if this was a female or male, because it had components of both sex...(For the sake of the story we shall call it "IT") "It" was severally overweight, and couldn't fit on the chair without lean over to one side, and of course choice my side, I being the phone junky was too into my phone to care when suddenly it leaned in close to me then back away, (whether it was to smell me or let out a fart is unknown none the less it freaked me OUT) so I turned to look at it and it didn't even glance back at me, thinking it was a one time thing I continued on my phone then suddenly it slide it's cane from on top of the mountain of which it calls it's leg onto mine, and evilly looks at me... (I know by this time any normal person would of gotten up or spazzed) but due to a mixture of my extreme patients with awkward situations, pure laziness, and my incredible urge to pee I stayed) now instead of paying attention to my phone I just stared at the screen waiting for something else to happen. LO AND BEHOLD it leans in again and immediately after slides the cane onto my leg again, this time stares at me interested in seeing my reaction... (At this point I'm not mad, just terrified cause this thing looks like it can either eat me or severely crush me) AHHHHHHHH!!!

(Well thank god the train came saved my life) I'm lucky to have survived this ordeal... :) #life&timesofaNYERS #TRUESTORY

Avatar The Last Air Bender RANT

First off let me just say EVERY movie should NOT be made into 3-D, yes the concept does call for some cool effects but due to the fact that the movie wasnt orginally made for 3-D it shouldn't of been half ass turned in to it.

As much as i appreciate M. Night Shyamalan, his directing style might of been a little to dramatic for this particular kind of movie, I think he should of left in the comedic elements of the show it would aided the movie especially the characters development.The graphics and actions scenes was good, along with the calculated shots of every scene. What i did think he did a great job at was getting out little important details out quick in the beginning for example how Zuko got his scar.

Appearance wise they couldn't of picked a better cast Aang (Noah Ringer), Sokka (Jackson Rathbone), and Katara (Nicola Peltz) although their acting wasn't up to par. The best casted was (Seychelle Gabriel) Yue princess of the northern water tribe down to her voice, even though she has a relatively minor role, then following Zuko the tormented fire prince played by (Dev Patel from Slumdog Millionaire)

Like most adaptations they changed some things, one of things in which i didnt agree with is that instead of Katara teaching him water bending they were both taught by the northern water bending teacher which isn't entirely true, make you wonder if they are planning to ever tie in how powerful Katara water bending is because in the show she learns how to bend "people". Another thing is that they all seem to have very little knowledge of everything when that most definitely wasn't the case in the show. Katara's character was wise beyond her years and in the movie wasn't portrayed as such.They also left out some important details with the spirits especially the faceless spirit that reveals a lot about the other characters that are important, and more in dept stories of the past avatars fortunately they still the sequel to add it in.

With all this being said I still have hope for Book 2 if they'll take notes of their mistakes and rectify them.

To whom it may concern...

Tortured being

let ur saddened visage melt away in a pool of lies & tears

Your transparency is blatent & blinding & cannot hide ur fears

You try to display a harden soul

But its so plain to see you are just vulnerable

Wise indeed but even more foolish beneath

Tattered spirit, let your soul breathe...

(Collaboration with @MiMi_MaCchiato)

Picture courtesy of @Cucarefugia

Childhood I miss thee...

I wish I could go back to being 10 when summer meant a two month long vacation, were my only worry was what time I could stay out and play till, the only hard decision I had to make was whether to play kickball or football, the most serious arguments was who can run the fastest on the block, no boy trouble because they had cooties, and everything i ever wanted was sure to be brought by Santa Claus in December... #SIGH

Crazy legs... (i know this little cutie personally)

Don't Drink and Climb....

Walk the Walk Review

by Claudine Aime   (here is the link to Tribes website where its from A Gathering Of Tribes ) <- click and see =)

Within the hustle and bustle, nestled in Midtown Manhattan’s highly corporate district, it would be easy to miss any form of artistic expression, but New Yorkers are no stranger to the eclectic collage of art, music, and pop culture that their city has to offer. Deep in Bryant Park, hidden among the trees, a large yellow cubic platform stands. There are women dressed in summer dresses, on top of it moving erratically. It may at first seem confusing, but that is exactly artist Kate Gilmore’s intentions, in her pedestrious and colorful art spectacle. Cleverly named “Walk the Walk”, was more than just women walking idly, it was her expression of the everyday movements and actions shared by many of the surrounding office employees. It embodies mobility and progression in a fast paced workforce.

As many artists have learned before, igniting interest with public art is no easy task, but Kate Gilmore, along side with Public Art Fund, have managed to spark cognition in the minds of many of the observers. From May 3, 2010 to May 7th in Bryant Park from 8:30 to 6:30, 7 women shuffled along in the 100 square feet cubicle 8 feet off the ground wearing bright canary yellow dresses and beige shoes in a pattern that resembles systematic chaos. Perplexed by the sight, a 29-year-old Met Life employee went during his lunch break to investigate the display; only after reading the synopsis did he fully understand what was behind the artist’s vision. When asked his opinion he stated “the exhibit is a good and clear representation of the daily grind.”

Just a glance alone wouldn’t suffice: to get the clear picture, a full experience of the piece and its many dimensions, one would have to examine not only the exterior but the interior of the structure as well. Following the yellow theme, on each side of the brightly colored cubicle there are entranceways allowing on-lookers to enter in from four directions. When walking into the cubicle you are bombarded with the cacophony of the footsteps above, mimicking the sounds you are likely to hear in office and apartment buildings. The footsteps became more than just the sounds of a group of people pacing, but an intricate dance-like pattern that the women navigated effortlessly. In an interview with one of the performers, Sophia Stoll explains that one of their tasks was to convey personality and emotion without the exchange of words. “We communicate with each other by stomping our feet.” Since they were not allowed to speak to each other, stomping became their own intimate form of non-verbal communication. Walking about in a 100 square feet area for 5 hours a day was a difficult task for them to do without speaking, so physical expression became useful as a social outlet.

Aside from the visual enjoyment of watching these young women perform on this vibrant cube in a shady setting in the park, is there more to “Walk the Walk” than just a simulation of the work force or a pessimistic depiction of the monotony behind it? Is it just “our life as we know it”, worker drones confined to stifled expression, or is the message deeper? Kate Gilmore said it best during our impromptu interview, stating “even though they’re in this one little space and not much is happening they are actually really navigating each other in a goal base way. If it wasn’t goal-based then they would just be going around in circles, but they’re not, so while they’re still confined to this space, they’re still having to maintain their own identity and space in this very generic environment.”

Dope Sick Love

My heart skips a beat when I feel something wrong

and skips 2 when I feel something is right

these are the little signs that remind me that I'm alive

but sometimes its too much

Especially when the pain doesn't subside

Just the thought of heartbreak brings tears to my eyes

Why...

Because When I'm in love

U become everything to me

Like the air I breathe I wanna feel you within me

Take in Every part of u, and let out toxic

And like everything good you must be taken in caution

cause even too much of you can make me feel nauseous

One breathe of u fills me with life

but too much of you makes me loose sight

Infectious love, you are like a disease

Like a virus, u become a part me...

 

Little Note...

The union of such opposing sounds to create an incredible melody, together with heart felt words makes songs that becomes the score to our lives... 

“Dubito ergo cogito; cogito ergo sum. (I doubt, therefore I think; I think therefore I am)”

FREEDOM so easily used... Here are my thoughts on the subject:

Who says we are free, Bound by the confines of Cult religion and consumerism, People are defined by what they own, chasing what we are instilled to believe is the american dream, that's not free. "Free people or strategically placed mice in a maze all chasing the same cheese, learning only when we have reached it that it was all for nothing. All your worldly possessions doesn't cross over with you in your next life or even the afterlife if that this what u believe "The things you own end up owning you" "We shape our tools, and in return our tools shape us" What does that say about us...

SNUFF

I just wanted to share with anyone willing to listen how amazing this song is...

Bury all your secrets in my skin

Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins

The air around me still feels like a cage

And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me let me go

And run away before I know

My heart is just too dark to care

I can?t destroy what isn?t there

Deliver me into my fate

If I?m alone I cannot hate

I don?t deserve to have you

Ooh, my smile was taken long ago

If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips

And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss

I couldn?t face a life without your lights

But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not care

I think I made it very clear

You couldn?t hate enough to love

Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren?t my friend

Then I could hurt you in the end

I never claimed to be a saint

Ooh, my own was banished long ago

It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones

And spit your pity in my soul

You never needed any help

You sold me out to save yourself

And I won?t listen to your shame

You ran away, you?re all the same

Angels lie to keep control

Ooh, my love was punished long ago

If you still care don?t ever let me know

If you still care don?t ever let me know

(In case you didn't know this song is Snuff by Slipknot)
This is for everyone that says Rock is just a bunch of sreaming... Put this in your pipe and SMOKE IT!!!!!

Ode to a rainy day

My Version of a piece of the poem Raining in Time Square by Brett Axel

The Rain reminds me:

A stark illusionist

Of Concrete and steel

how much I have yet to conquer:

How much I can't control-

An umbrella would only serve

to shelter me from the little reality

that fights to find a way

to be felt, seen and heard
 
(by the way i do really love rainy days)

MONKEY SEE MONKEY DO, You blog, I CAN BLOG TOO =)

I realize my blog would never gain the popularity of most because I do not write what's hip, but (in Cartmans voice)  "Whatever whatever I DO WHAT I WANT!!" ya'll can continue to write about Hip hop, Fashion, and celebs, and I'll continue to write about the real world and ALL I face on a daily basis. I don't think life is all about who is wearing what, who is dating who, cause eventually you'll get slapped in the face with life's reality, but i guess then you'll know that you are living in a dream world which sooner or later your going to have to wake up from.

In case you are a little confused about what type of bloggers I am talking about:

FOR THE WANNABE CELEB GOSSIP BLOGS, KNOCK OFF FASHION BLOGS, and newest TUMBLR DOUCHEBAGS (kinda glad i stopped posting on there and switched here=)

First off, what is with the need for all voyeurism, does it really make you feel better as a person to sit and talk trash about people doing better then you. If you've got an issue grab a tissue (LOL goldmember reference) but stop trying to take your resentment of your lack of self accomplishment out on celebrities, La-Who-ZER!!! U guys should have some of this>>>>

Blogging about your personal life, likes, dislikes and experiences is one thing, but blogging off of a real celebrity trending journalists is not only self loathing but it is in fact kinda pathetic... Real journalist work hard give interviews and researching their subject to write about them, half of these Slime bucket bloggers get there information from their articles. #HOWRUDE don't steal their hard work, pass it off as your own to try and make your self seem "Cool and in the know". Don't you get it, the information your getting is someone's opinion (columnist's) of a particular account. Do you really think people wanna read someone's opinion of someone's opinion. There could only before so many Perez Hilton in the world so PLEASE for your own sake STOP IT cause i am pretty sure you are NOT fooling ANYONE!!!

But Onward march to some the blogs i follow on here, u bloggers are seriously are some of the most amusing creative creatures on the planet, i only wish there were more of you <3 

EVERYONE ELSE i hope your computers IMPLODE as a sign from god so u can then know that you are one of the people i was just talking about... #kthanks :-D

psssst.....i think your obnoxiously gorgeous..

OMG! this is has to be the BEST/COOLEST compliment in the universe. (wish i knew who u are)

Ask me anything your little hearts DESIRE

Overcompensation in 140 characters or less...

Twitter is Huge right now. Before you start jumping to conclusion that this will be an anti Twitter post its DEFINITELY NOT. ::Cough (Follow me on twitter @CaimeAhOlic) Cough:: lol

In a world so disconnected Social networks are suppose to make us feel more connected. Out of all the social networks that are out there Twitter is one of my favorites. It let's a person speak their minds in 140 characters or less.


SOoOo What's the problem with twitter? Nothing, the problem is the selected few that take twitter WAY TOO seriously... I know there is always people who think they are a HOT commodity, but what gets me is when they think that because they have a lot of followers (THE TWITTER-CELEBS) and I don't mean Celebrities on twitter. I've gone to a party recently were people were refering to people by their twitter names (QUA???) People were grabbing people and saying OMG Ur @DoucheFace1, I am @SlutsAnOnymOus (LMAO.) (Seriously you people u are a hoot! :-D) these same people only gain their "status" and followers by writing in outlandish things or for girls (constantly posting up pics of themselves nearly naked.) Here is were the term Over compensation comes in.
 Definition: (For the Rr-tards) It is when someone tries to assert power (or in this case Popularity) over another person to mask there own feelings of worthlessness. (its all quite sad...)

Now I am not here to pick on these people or give them anymore attention that they DEFINITELY DO NOT DESERVE. So I am not going to compile a list of these Social Turds but I will state just a couple of indirect, direct statements to them, (deep down I am sure they know who they are)
 
This Post is for:
1. The LAMES that only follow people only in hope that they will follow back...
2. The Wanna be whores that post sooo much pictures of themselves that they can't possibly have time to actually have intercourse. LMAO
3.  The Posers that complain ALL day long about social network sites, YET are signed on to ALL or them and CONSTANTLY check it.
4. I can't think of anything else... but there are more... (too be continued...) (Not really) but
 
This is my reactions when i see you on.....
 

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Proper gym etiquette from a girl meat head

I may be girlie girl but when it comes to the gym I am a straight up meat head (I am talking anything you can do, I can do better) so when I go and I find way too many things wrong with some of the people that go and the things they do it BOILS MY BLOOD Here is me VENTING...

#FYI Staring at person thru the mirror doesn't mean that they won't notice you staring at them (it throws off a person's workout) There has been too many times where I've been in awkward situations at the gym and had crazy stalker like people stare at me like I'm a slice of pizza, do me a favor and OFF Your self you are messing up my precious gym time.

Girls girls girls PLEASE stop putting on COats of makeup to the gym!!!! or NOT because it does CRACKS me up when I see you girls leave the gym looking like this...

 

WHY SO SERIOUS???? lol

Guys, Don't automatically assume because I am a girl that I have NO idea what I am doing as far as working out goes. (Unless you are a personal trainer DO NOT try and give me stupid pointers.) Especially if you are one of those Rrr-tards that curl a 50 pound dumbbell once then move on to another body part. 

#GYMDOUCHEBAGSALERT!!!!

To the girl that wears the shorts that when she bends down I can see her entire VAG!  GO THE FUCK HOME u WHORE!!!  You are the reason guys don't take girls seriously at the gym.

SEEE you can't stop STARING!!!!!

***LADIES just because it is spandex DOES NOT mean its is proper GYM attire.***

                                                   

Acknowledge the fact that if a person has headphones on that they are probably not listening to ur stupid small talk about how long you've been going to the gym and what you are trying to accomplish, Cause I surely could not care LESS.

I AM NOT LISTENING!!!!!!

Girls if ur going to gym, walking around and bullshitting on machines just to check out guys, Move THE F**K over when someone who is actually working out needs the machine.

***Hygiene!!!!*** Deodorant BEFORE going to the gym. I understand gym makes you sweat and you are not going to smell your freshest but its like some people bath in ONIONS & ASS before going to gym. DISGUSTING!!!

P.S Please wipe the sweat and butt juice off of the machines after you get off, I'll be sure to do the same Thank you :-)

                                                                        

PENIS VS. VAGINA

Don't start with the crazy looks already,  but YES i do have penis envy, before u judge me I'll tell you why... This story is called "If i Only had a Penis..."

                                            

        I'd trade my Ovaries and vag for a penis ANYDAY, I'd even though in the boobies for free. Let me explain why I would give these things up. As pretty as boobs are to look at, they are annoying as shit to deal with. I would love to do cool things like run, without worrying about my boobs, And i personally don't think its fun that i have to slightly lean over just to see my feet (small boobie girls should feel fortunate) i feel bad for women like this...        

                                         

 

As for the vag and ovaries, Jeez do I even need to go over what happens every month.... GRrRrR! but on top of that i have to look forward to pushing a watermelon size baby out my keyhole size vag.... NOT HAPPY.  (Don't worry I wont put up a picture of that...)

          Now if i had penis i wouldn't have all that to worry about, No real need for the balls though cause if i was a guy i wouldn't want to procreate. If i did have kids I'd probably be a deadbeat dad, I would be too busy Plugging anything with a hole even somethings without. Kinda like how a lot of guys are already #ZING! lol  I would be the BIGGEST PERV in the universe. I would whack off discreetly in public places every five minutes, just cause i could...  (and i know guys can cause I've seen it happen) (<-Traumatizing story we'll leave that for another post) You guys have no idea how cool you have it, your junk is ON THE OUTSIDE, you could inspect it all day, and I like to think that given my boobs size I would be hung like a horse (If breasts sizes and penis sizes were equivalent of course)  Stepping away from the sexual benefits, with penis comes Testosterone and lets face it I've always wanted to play FOOTBALL... =) 

                                           

Little Disclamier:

I am not about to have a sex change... #Imjustsaying Don't worry I am well aware of the POWER OF THE VAG!                                   

                                        LOL

Ode to Psycho girlfriend...

Do u have a psycho girlfriend?

Does she nag about everything you do?

Do feel that she is overly jealous and possessive over anything that moves and or breathes next to you?

Do you fear for ur and or her life if you end the relationship?

If you said yes to any of these questions  then u have a psycho girlfriend and a serious problem.

                             

I am sure ur saying she the most “REAL!!!” person you can find and its because she loves you that she is like that. but let me just say  SHE IS JUST CRAZY! I know i am not the first person to tell you this, your friends and your family have all probably told u this at one point or  another. but still you continue in the relationship. WHY? Is it because she gives u the feeling that no one could care about u in a normal healthy way?

You probably even say  ”but she is the only person that has been there for me” but that probably cause she has threaten to physically hurt any girl or guy that has tried to get near you. and what the hell is REAL!! anyway? its a sad excuse to be ignorant and childish. Its one thing to be outspoken and blunt with people but being snobby and a bitchy to everyone of the same sex and some of the opposite,  is just plan retarded.” Don’t hate on Beyonce, or Shakira  because ur man is looking  at her”  She is hot and she CAN sing, she not out to steal ur man, and SOOOO WHAT if he says he is in love with her  ITS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN!!!! Your just mad that u can’t do what she does.

Trying to fight every girl that comes near ur man is not ”real”  its psycho and stupid.  And what is up with these girls that hate theirs man’s friends because it doesn’t allow her to spend every waking second with him.. GET A LIFE** And here is a fact, jealousy is not proof that she like or loves you, it is  signs of insecurity and possibly that she doesn’t trust you.

Why can’t these guys get rid of these Psycho girls?? THERE ARE girls out there that show u they care  by doing things like kissing you and telling you how much they love you, not by  yelling at u that a girl 20 feet away is too f**king close to you. Can’t you see she so possessive of you she is two seconds from PEEING ON YOU to mark her territory. A girl like that doesn’t need a boyfriend she needs a F**KING STRAIGHT JACKET***

LETS PUT AN END TO THE MADNESS GUYS.. LOSE THE BITCH!!!!!

Note to those girls:

Don’t go and try to contact every girl that he knows and interrogate all of them cause contrary to how GANGSTER u think and say u are, u are going to end up  messing with the wrong person and (Very nicely put) getting seriously hurt. So do yourself a favor Quit while your ahead